I made it through the week mostly due to the love and
compassion of all the amazing friends in my life. People complain that virtual
networking tools are intrusive and lead to social isolation but I certainly
would have emotionally imploded if not for the power of Facebook to share my
crazy with the world and in turn receive notes of encouragement and extremely helpful
advice.
I special shout out to Swason who has supported the mother
load of my dissolving psyche with the patience and restraint of a saint. She is
Catholic so it is par for the course and she told me that while she is dealing
with my mental meltdown she is earning extra bonus “good” points to make up for
her transgressions. Ehhh I’ll still buy her a case of wine, as a Jew I’m not
too sure about that point system.
My therapist search is still ongoing, however I feel that I
am on a fast track after engaging the assistance of my most favorite REAL
health professional, Dr. Pico. Yet again thanks goes to Swason who with a
clearer head than mine suggested that I ask one of my current physicians for
help after 11 of my calls to perspective therapists went unreturned and she was
bombarded with a Gtalk window chock full of my anxiety ridden babble. I’m
certain Swason is rethinking that decision years ago to teach me about IMing –
it must be difficult for her to enter payroll for a Broadway company while
solving my life issues, I don’t know how she does it.
I know that the chunk of crap that went down on Monday will
fade over time, dissolve organically and just fly away, however it’s the other
gray, the gray that’s taken up residence for the past 10 months that really
must be evicted. With Dr. Pico on my side and his excellent recommendations (I
called one yesterday, I am waiting for her response) I feel a huge amount of
relief that I don’t have to fix everything alone, that I have people that are
better equipped than I and they are happy to share the load.
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