I want my person, I don’t know where he is or when I’ll find
him but I really want him. Sweets was never my person, I knew that by the end of
March, but it was OK, there was fun and lots of shared wonderful moments even
if he never looked at me with ravenous wolf eyes or grabbed me at the door
after not seeing me for weeks, then threw me to the ground to ravage me. I want
to be a man’s perfect embodiment of womanhood, I want to be his #1, not his
#36, when we’re apart I want him to think, “Wow I wish Gail was here, this would
be much more fun with her sharing in this.” And I want to fall crazy head over
heels for him and I want him to be ridiculous for me as well.
I cried Tuesday, hard, and truthfully my eyes are welling up
as I type this now, not because Sweets and I aren’t dating but because of the
situation, because I really DO deserve to have the best and I’m at the peak of
my life, feeling the strongest/ healthiest I have ever felt with an abundance
of energy and happiness and I just want to share that. Side note, having the spinning instructor
surprise you with a new song during the most difficult part of the class and
that song be a slow broken hearted love duet really does some good work for
purging one’s emotion. Thank goodness the room was dark and the music was
booming cause I was falling apart, full heaving ugly face weeping with the
tears mixing with my face sweat (hot, I know). I was rather impressed with my
lung capacity though; it is kinda bad ass to be bawling uncontrollably while
climbing a major hill in spin class, just saying.
Using the knowledge I learned from the men I’ve met I
decided to update my online dating profile to reflect my true needs and wants
in hopes that it weeds out the men who just aren’t available to give me what I
desire. For your reading pleasure I have included an excerpt below – enjoy.
Lastly, yesterday morning I got a little surprise boost to
the ego when Mr. Woods popped up on my OkCupid instant messenger. Mr. Woods has
permanently relocated to Zurich but is still on the prowl. We exchanged small talk before I had to
race out the door but even within our hurried chat Mr. Woods was able to
squeeze in some very flattering memories of me – it’s nice to be remembered,
especially as a drop dead sexy goddess.
Online Dating Excerpt:
I have time, energy, creativity, and no anchors weighing me
down or holding me back to get out and GO (I don't even own a houseplant). I
want to do things, go places, DATE and have a vat full of raucous laughter
doing it. I am independent, I have traveled, dined, attended social events,
explored, etc... on my own but now I want to share all kinds of super fun
things with a man I am dating , therefor if you do not have the availability in
your heart/ head/ schedule to share time and adventures then I would not be a
good prospective dating partner.
(other stuff)
I need a man to date who has space in his
life to incorporate another. At this age many people come with other people
(ex's, kids, elderly parents, overwhelming careers etc...) and that is par for
the course however please understand your time limitations, if your dance card
is already full with other commitments I would not be a good match for you. I
am not interested in getting married or having kids, now is my time for
wondrous escapades and rip roaring fun and I would like to share that with a man who has
the time and energy to hit it!
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